well last blog was like wae wae long time baq...on da 24th of march..
hmmm well....yea...
had been a bit bz here n dere...now dat i am realli lookin for a job n all....boredom is killing mi...
da older i get...i tend to think alot alzo...
too many things in mind....n makin mi give up...i noe i haf never done anythin much in life to feel
like dis but in awae i do feel hopeless...being jobless....
i dunt feel da same nowadaes....most of da time i am alone at hm...
i juz wished i had ma old life baq....things wif mi n ma baby aint goin on too good as well....i haf no1 to talk to...ma best fren is hafin her own problemz n all alzo...how can i simply flood her wif mine den....
i juz feel so wrestless..at times i am bein so restricted in everythin...alwayz nth realli happens da wae i want...haha simpli i guess its juz mi...u noe bein "sway" in everythin...
haha like i cant do ma 21st dis yr...it was 1 of ma dreamz...to haf a gd 1...but looks like as usual..
finance has been da problem...cant blame ma parents too...
i dunt noe....i alwayz create ma life into a mess....i dunt noe if i am doin da rite thing at times or not...no 1 to consult...mum is sooooo against mi gettin a bike....
i wish i can haf dat sth to talk to....sth dat can listen to mi....n understand mi...
can i haf another rachael who can be my fren...?????
sounds dumb though....well dis blogger is ma rachy number 2 whom i can talk to...
coz onli dis rachael will understan mi...rite rachy 2???lol....
so wat more can i sae...hmm....i realli wish ma baby is here wif mi....
juz mizz him so much...but now i am like in a situation i cant xpress ma love or
how much i mizz him or wat...so i shall blogg abt dat here...
Baby Chellam this msg is for u:
"Well dearest, i know we r still together now but things r not da same n not rite....i really cant take dis feeling at all...i am realli waitin for us to be baq normal...pls come to be baby...coz i realli love u alot....n i cant imagine any1 in ur place...may it be now or in da future"
From Rachy